I feel pretty?

So I am getting so sick of fashion. I feel like my body changed (which it has) and now I don't look good in anything. I just feel ugly and fat in everything I own and for some reason there is nothing cute that fits right in my new size. It is really hard not to get down on myself. I've had friends/family that have struggled with eating disorders before and honestly I don't have an eating disorder but for some reason the thought of not eating or "if you eat you'll have to throw up" comes into my head. I've never done it though. Making myself throw up sounds horrible and I don't really need laxatives...I just drink milk and that seems to do the trick. But the point is I need to find cute clothes for my body now not clothes that will fit in 6 months when I lose 40 pounds. Everyone deserves to feel pretty and right now I don't. I haven't shifted weight at all but my body has changed and it really bugs. I want to feel pretty again. But the media and everything out there tells me I'm not pretty.