The pressure

so... I haven't been keeping up lately... but I have also weighed myself and I am right with ya Addie, I'm at 23o and I feel like crap. Tonight made it worse though... I was low on cash so I went to wendy's and got a chicken sandwich.. not helping myself and it made me feel gross. But I have cut out all soda and chips, supposedly it is really helps you if you cut out the two while working out. I try and drink as much water as I can and green tea.. which I guess also is good?
I have been working out with kayla some running/walking... and going to the gym to lift weights when I can.
But I know exactly what you mean.. all my friends are sticks.. they say I'm fat.. It drives me nuts.. but I guess we all have something about ourselves we would like to change.

Most Disgusting Thing In the WORLD

Well today I weighed myself...Lets just say I've successfully gained the freshman and the sophomore 20+. Ugh I am so giant! It's disgusting...

And the grand total of how much fat I have on my body is




235


gag me.

Yuck

So lately I look in the mirror and I don't even think I look pretty. I just feel like a giant fatty. I look so disgusting. No matter what I do I have a fat roll here, a muffin top or whatever. It's so gross. And I just feel so so so ugly. Along with that apparently most of the people that say my hair is cute really think it's ugly and that makes me feel like even more crap. No matter what I do to try to feel pretty nothing works. And working out is showing no results and it's just annoying. What is most annoying is when my roommate's the size 3-6's say they're fat or when Lauren says she's fat when she's PREGNANT and she's still SMALLER than me. Shut up people when you say you're fat how do you think it makes me feel? NOT GOOD. You think this would be more motivation but really I just feel like crap and don't want to do anything.